I have absolutely no idea how to find the right words.
As soon as I saw this thread, my heart kind of stopped- I closed it and needed time to think, and realize what is actually going on. It sure is clear what has happened, but I still kind of refuse to accept it.
Everyone has found such wonderful words to express their feelings and to describe Diana.
I have never been good at this, but regardless I have a few things to say.
I was not one of the lucky individuals who have known her personally, but she was the very first one to welcome me on GASR. I have been a member of GASR since quite a while, but never really felt welcomed, or at home. However- with just a few words she did make me feel welcomed.
She was the very first one to post in my Shop, and didnt hesitate to compliment me on my work.
And I don't think she ever realized how much that meant to me, and I am afraid I never explained it to her either. Its foolish to assume a simple "Thank you" could translate what I meant.
How I was actually kind of scared to open my shop here, insecure. And as if she knew, she was there. She said she hoped to get to know me. And now its too late.
Too late to tell her how much she has helped me. Too late to get to know eachother.
Too late to say Thank you. Once again..
It may seem like very little she did, but such little things can mean everything to some. Especially to anyone who is stepping out into the light.
I keep reading every little thing she ever said to me, and I can't at all express what I feel. Grateful. Thankful. Sad. Happy. Everything at once.
I have missed my chance to tell her. To tell her everything.
But Diana. Wherever you may be now. May you be sailing into your next adventure, may you be sitting on a cloud petting a little fluffy kitty, or may you be still be around somewhere among us.
For everything. For every little word you used to encourage me. For every little word you used to make me, or anyone else smile. I just hope you ever somehow get to know how much you helped me, and many other people. We will keep your words in our heart. Forever.
Rest in peace, Diana. May you be wherever you wish to be at. We will always remember you.
Regret is one of the worst feelings there is. And I regret so much I didnt do, tell, and let her know.
So I also want to step right ahead and Thank everyone else who welcomed me, complimented me, and helped me out among this community. Every message you sent me. Every comment you left. Everytime one of you happened to come to my room on IMVU to simply say hello.